Life's TRUE Journey

So, I'm totally pissed because I did a blogger and got to the end of it (It was a long one too) and the damn thing fucked up at the last moment and nothing was published. So I'm screaming at the top of my lungs "Geezus Crap holy as if fuck shit damnit!" So, right now I don't want to really type anything. Okay, so this will be short. Andrew and I talked twice since the big "break up". The first time he spent the time saying sorry, and how happy we both will be, then the second time, I told him I found someone named Ricky, which is actually just a friend of mine that is half hispanic and half europian, like Andrew. I told Andrew that Ricky and I are thinking of loosing our gay virginity together and Andrew got really pissed, so he left. And I was like, sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So mean, I know, but that bastard hurt me. And no, I'm not really dating Ricky. He's one of those guys that look so damn good, but lacks in, um, personal...

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh to everyone! I drive around with Rob and we were talking like usual. His wife's a bitch, my life's a bitch. And I mention something about this woman we say. I was like, hey baby, and then I got angry when she didn't respond and drove away. Then I said " I get mad when I don't get what I want" and then he says, being the stupid man that he and all men are, "Well, you must get mad a lot" and I was like into rage because, gezzzz, that's such a bad thing to say at the point of my life that of which I am in right now. Am I over using the words? So, I don't know if I'm mad at Rob or not. Rosie, on the other hand continues to be my stone. She's so good to me. She sent me this poem that I sent to her a long time ago because yesterday I mentioned that I was feeling that I had grown cold inside and feelingless, and she found the poem I sent her just to point out that I do have feelings and I felt it was total...

Hello Folks. Well, there is no more Andrew and I. And, to make matters worse, I stopped eating. 've been drinking a lot of stuff and I didn't even realize that I haven't been eating until Cheryl pointed it out to me. I got on the scale and I looked in shock when I realize I lost 10 more pounds in less than 5 days. I've been going and going without eating and somehow I didn't realize it. I have yet to cry about Andrew and I. I don't know why. I usually cry like a total baby. Esspecial since he dumped me, and not the other way around. Things are so different right now. I'm totally clinging to Rob and Rosie. Rob and I drive around all hours of the day and night and just talk about anything and everything other than our relationships. His wife is a bitch and my fiancee is a quitter. Not much more to say after that. Then I turn to Rosie who's like totally mature and grown up and she tallks and talks about Dan and stuff and it's not that I ...

OMG, okay. Years ago I had this friend named Bruce and he was the like first guy I really had, you know, feelings for. I mean, we never did anything and we both knew where each other stood. I was Bi and he was totally straight. But he was like next in line for Best Friend title behind Andrew J and I totally loved him. But, then about 3 years ago, he moved away. We had been getting really close near the time when he left to the point where I thought he might, you know, give in. But he left, so oh well. Well, I seen him today. He's back in town WITH A BABY ON THE WAY! He's girlfriend who he was with before he left, yeah the one that he broke up with, is pregnant. I was like, ugh! But I guess I'm happy for him. I mean, seeing him stirred up all these emotions and I wasn't ready for that. Anyways! Today I found out when my friend Shawnia is leaving. In June, she'll be going to California to persue her modeling carrerr that I helped her start. She want...