Life's TRUE Journey

Mood: Sad Music: Lonely day by System of a Down Just Lyrics. (I'll post an update soon. Before friday for sure. ) Lonely Day by System Of A DownSuch a lonely day, And it's mine. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day should be banned. It's a day that I can't stand. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day shouldn't exist. It's a day that I'll never miss. Such a lonely day, and it's mine. The most loneliest day of my life. And if you go, I wanna go with you. And if you die, I wanna die with you. Take your hand and walk away. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day, and it's mine. It's a day that I'm glad I survived.

Subject: Forgive me father, For I have sinned Mood: Angry Music: Lonely Day by System of a Down I swear, i need to check myself into a clinic to get some much needed rest. This is a vent post but it's a crazy post, and an ana post and a, I dunno. It's going to be all over the map, ali with my emotional state. Forgive me father, for I've committed a deadly sin. A sin I've repeated A LOT recently. Envy. It's wrong of me and I do realize it when I commit it. But, it keeps rearing it's ugly head in a couple different ways. Confusing ways. I will elabo on a couple. Take for instance, the shocker of a lifetime. I've been speaking with this lady of about 30 years. I've grown pretty attached to her. I usually stop by her place of business, a gas station not to far from my home, and we usually spend about 30 minutes a night speaking to one another when I get off work. Recently, a guy has been talking with her as well. She had been speaking of ...

Mood: Chillin' Music: Lean Wit it. Franchise Boyz Hello, and welcome to another update on my, well, um, life. I went bowling with Jessie yesterday. it was an outing to discus (and put to rest) all the things that happened with her and I and Sam. So, I said I was sorry to her because I was such a bitch. It was stupid. I blamed her for not being able to be with same, when all along it was really not what I needed. I was angry with her, when I really should have been angry with myself for breaking my own goals set for myself. She did nothing wrong. I really applaud her for even allowing me the opportunity to explain and appoligise for my stupidity. Besides, as I reflect, I know that Sam is not what I wanted anyways. i didn't even know the boy. So, it was great. Jessi is on a bowling league, and I've not bowled since I was about 14. So, I was so embarrassed getting a 25 the first game and 33 the next. Grrr. I should have had the bumpers, but noooooooo. Jessi ...

Feeling Sad Hearing Nothing I am not a poet, but just something Dancing man so full of grace. Song to sing, with a beautiful face. Long way from home, you made a life worked 60 hours, never took a wife Smiled when sad, smiled when glad Smiled with comfort when you made me mad Heart so big, ego so small And recently my friend, you heard the call. A good person like you is not fit for earth. Now you're with other Angels on their Turf. Move those hips, sing that song. Keep Heaven happy all day long. The memories of that I keep down here. And one day I 'll be there, just to be near. When you sing your song, and dance your dance. How I long for the day I will get that chance. To laugh and play and hold you near. See your smile and know there's nothing to fear. Down here you took things easy Did crazy things, and your jokes were pretty cheesy. You impacted my life with you just being you. And the now I cry with nothing else to do. Cry for the lost, though your memory is fresh. ...

Feeling Quiet Hearing Nothing Sickness and Death hello. I've not updated in a while, I know. I've been dealing with the death of a dear friend of mine, and also with sickness myself. I will be updating soon though. I'm getting my energy back and I have so much to tell. So bare with me. I love you all. Tommy D.