Life's TRUE Journey

Feeling Quiet Hearing Tim McGraw- Live like you're dieing Disturbing Behavior Hello my fine feathered friends and foes. My heart aches so much recently. I;m in a funk. Damn it! Damn it all to hell. after work last night, I got so down that I invited James, a friend , over and just drank and drank and drank. I had about three margaritas. And then James convinced me to do str8 tequila shots. Um, bad idea. LOL. It was only the second time in my life where I actually forgot pieces of the evening. I'm just glad I don't get hang overs for some reason. James had a bitch of one. He passed out on the floor somehow and I somehow made it to my bed. Yay! Now I'm a drunk. Yippee. I don't know what's going on with me peeps. I know I've been doing a lot of changes. No longer chasing rainbows and butterflies. But, I'm chasing something. Talked with Andrew about our "relationship" and we had a pretty decent talk about things. It...

Feeling Anxious Hearing Jos Stone (Sp?) Gotta right to be wrong Horns DiMera Hey peeps. Gonna try to keep this one a positive post. But, you know me. It may not end up that way, but I try. Well, on the front burner, I went to Washington. Ran into some bad weather, but we made it there and back in great condition. The energy of the crowd was so powerful. I've try to explain it to people who asked how the trip went, but Somehow I couldn't. I can't put it into words. i mean, it changed me a lot. Ugh. I'm still fustrated right now trying to explain it all. I just can describe it. it was like this energy weither it's negative or positive going to this one man and, ugh. yadda. Anyways, great trip. Been rather busy since I got back. I'm not a full time activist. the guys that I went with have my phone number and email and all that and they are sending me events, demostrations, protest and all that so I can prepare. I'm going to be making a...

Feeling Angry Watching Mad TV Jackasses, bitches, and assholes So, ok, here's an update for you. Birthday: Three words. Hor ri ble . Chris called in the morning, and I chewed him out but he wasn't in the mood to hear me so he hung up. So, whatever. Andrew never said anything about it. So, I just said fuck it. Of course Kevin didn't mention it because he wasn't horny so he had no reason to acknowledge me the whole day. So, work was no better. Yes, working on my birthday. Who gives a shit. So, the one person I was looking forward to telling me happy birthday didn'ts. He walks thru the damn door, and I'm looking to him to say hi. Or Happy birthday. No. Jackass there says " You need to stop calling up here and hanging up" WTF! No happy birthday, no Hi Tommy. I didn't even know what the hell he was talking about! He says that I called , said my name, then hung up. Like, I have the IQ of a rock or something. Ugh. So, go...

Feeling Sad Hearing Air Supply Birth Of a King Well, it's my birthday. I don't think it's starting off well. Every birthday since forever, Chris has called me and would be the first to wish me a happy birthday,but Chris hasn't called. Well, shit. Jhoeny was the first to wish me a happy birthday which made me ok, but not great because it's upsetting that Chris still hasn't called an hour after. I called his cell and it's not on and he doesn't have a landphone. So, yeah, whatever I'm having a total PMS day. It's ok though. I will look n the positive side of things. I wish Andrew would remember my birthday, but theres no hope of that. I don't think I informed you of what's happening with him. Well, one night I tried to talk with him and he gets all irate and says he doesn't want to talk to me right now. I know this doesn't seem like a big deal, or something to get my panties in a knot about, but this is conti...

Feeling Sad Hearing Hoobaskank (Ha) Reason 2004 Thanks You + Quick Update Hey. Ok, so I'm a day late. i'm sorry. Let me give a quick update. Things are not looking goof for me. Kevin is now on fuck buddy status and I hate that so much. i don't want a fuck buddy. He comes over, does his puppy eyes and starts to nibble. It's starting to feel like more of a chore. Granted, it great, but yeah. He doesn't even acknowledge me in public anymore. It's my own fault for allowing it to happen. I'm just not as strong as I used to be. It's very sad. All of my friends have been distant recently either because I've pushed them away, or that they pushed me away. That's why this years thank yous are extremly difficult. I mean, I can do it because I'm to think of the past year, 2004, and give thanks and remain positive. But, you will notice a few people missing from the list this year. I don't know, I hate doing this, but I fe...

1:04:47 AM EST Feeling Flirtatious Hearing Green Day QUICK NOTE Hey. Just wanted to let you all know, I will do my thank you tomorrow night. I've been busy with things but I haven't forgot. I'm still within the tie frame. So, tomorrow night, I'll have the thank yous post. Love you all and as always, God Bless. Written by thomasdimera